Once a loser, always a loser

Facebook is making me sad. I feel like a big fat loser. People that I thought I was friends with are not adding me! It's stupid I know. The profiles of ex boyfriends are too much temptation. They scream to be peeked at. Which has been causing second thoughts about old relationships. Also stupid, I know. Maybe it's because I can feel myself settling in. Last Saturdays girls night out did nothing but make me feel old. I'm happy where I'm at and everything. It's just that realization that this is it. I really feel like this is as good as it gets right here.

The good news is that the high roller is treating me to a spa weekend. Hot stones, and my hair re-colored, I can't wait. I'm thinking of going blonde. We'll see.

Hump like Bunnies

I made these for you. Enjoy and have a Happy Easter.

You sunk my battleship!

It's cold out today! I had to get my mittens back out of storage. At least the dogs stayed out of the lake today. I cleaned the jeep yesterday and it's nice not having it covered in mud for a change.

So the market was great on Saturday. I almost sold out. I even got a big order to fill. I'm excited that business is picking up. Anyone reading who burns scented candles should inform themselves about the dangers of paraffin wax. Paraffin wax is made from Petroleum. That black smoke and soot that you get while burning? Toxic chemicals burning off and into your environment. Everyone really should switch to soy wax. It's safer, cleaner and a renewable resource.

The gun it makes you look nicer in a good way...

I'm depressed and I dunno why. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to lay down and die. Well not die but it rhymed and it sounded oh so dramatic. It's not that bad. I have a gazillion things to do but so far all that appeals to me is smoking and drinking coffee. Things are piling up and that just depresses me more. I actually did a load of laundry today. All that did was make room in the dirty laundry hamper for all the crap on my floor. I made room in the hamper, I did not put the crap off the floor in the hamper. I thought Spring was supposed to put a little bit of pep in your step or some shit. I need some pep. I need something. A good kick in the ass to get this place cleaned up. As I'm writing this I'm making a mental list and it's too long. It's depressing me more....taxes, clean closet, dust air vents, make wedding favors for friends wedding, organize the towering pile of paperwork on my desk, reply to emails from friends I've lost touch with and are to scared to talk to, shave my legs, mop the floor, throw away all the junk in the kitty room, get the buzzer fixed....

IT NEVER ENDS

Yet here I am on the couch. Doing nothing and feeling sorry for myself. Somebody kick me in the ass please. Then call Molly Maid and tell them I'm desperate!

The devil punched down to the monkeys

Right now my cat is sitting beside me staring me down. I have no clue as to why. She doesn't want to be petted or anything. I pet her and she leaves. Then she slowly sneaks back up and continues staring. I think she's trying to read my mind. I wonder if she knows that I love the dog more. I wonder if she's jealous that the dog got elk meat sausages from the market. I wonder is she ate my brand new lip balm. I wonder if the dog ate my lip balm. Either way I'm without lip balm. I had it and then I went to bed and now it's gone. Knowing me it's in a pocket somewhere. I always do that. I put things in places so safe, I can never find them again.

The dashboard melted but we still have the radio

I wish more people would come buy candles at the market. It was boring today. Sales were ok. I was serenaded by a stranger. He was funny, and maybe a little bit crazy. Totally cool. It could have been more fun though. I should bring music next time. I've been listening to the new Modest Mouse and it's good. I like to dance to it. With a few more beers I am gonna blast it and dance in my living room alone.

Cha-Ching!

Money sucks. That's why I quit the bank. It was so depressing trying to debt counsel people. All they wanted to do was rack up the debts again as soon as the left my office. The wives would say that they "needed" new furniture, or granite counter tops, or a new SUV. Ya you "need' them! Your lungs will stop sucking in air and your heart will stop beating if the neighbors have a nicer kitchen than you! Balls.

Now, I'm working for myself, and I've turned into such a cheapskate. It's awesome. I splurged yesterday and bought myself a new shirt. $11.00 at Zellers. Look out big spender! It's a gorgeous green for St. Paddy's Day. I have Irish on both sides of my family. My ancestors came over to P.E.I from Ireland. My great great grandfather was a father of confederation. So I deserve the shirt. I don't need the shirt. Damn though, I do look good in green! Maybe if things go well later I get some pics posted.

Anyways, I've decided to stop stressing so much about money. It'll all work out in the end. One day I'll be rolling in the green! One day....